Sometimes I feel like a fraud. A fake. A phony. I think I've duped everyone into thinking that I'm super smart and put together, confident and competent. I'm not really. Well, to be fair to me, sometimes I am. I am competent at my job (even though it is not demanding). I work hard. I sometimes know what I'm talking about when I get going about school stuff...
But there are also moments when I am just trying to keep my head above water! Often I don't know what I'm doing and just kind of bungle my way through things. I worry that I won't be able to live up to everyone's image of me. Expectations can be great and empowering, but also stifling and intimidating.
How much of this is in my head? How much of it is really just me projecting my own expectations of my self onto others? I don't have an answer to that, but I'm working on it!
1 comment:
I have felt that way too. You, however, are brilliant and smart and hard working and wonderful in every way! No Fraud involved.
Sometimes the purpose of a higher education is to help us understand that we don't know everything. The more we learn, the more questions we find.
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