First of all, no one told me how hard it would be to focus the last month of my college experience. It's like being a senior in high school but worse! In high school, all your teachers knew if you were a senior and didn't expect much work out of you. In college, none of your professors care. Plus I already know where I am going to graduate school in a few months. I'll get on the internet to do research for a paper or something...and end up on Dr. Smetana's lab website, or looking at apartments in Rochester. I just have to stay focused for two more weeks! That's all!
Second, this is actually happening; I am actually moving. I reserved my space on a moving truck last week, mom and I are starting to make reservations for our trip out there, and I am starting to go through my stuff to decide what I am going to take. Up until now, I've just been talking about it. Now, though, I'm actually starting to DO things. It's a little surreal. I am so excited and happy, but I would be lying if I told you I wasn't scared too. I worry that I'm going to get there, not be able to keep up, and fall on my face. I worry that I will get too homesick. I worry that I will disappoint myself and all the people who are rooting for me. Most of all, I worry about my mom being alone. She is tough, but shouldn't have to be. I know that this is the right thing for me to do, so I just have to trust that things will work out!
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I know you will do great, Jess! You can't disappoint anyone when you've already done soooo much!!! Look at you! :)
Also, your mom is not alone! I bet she has a great community here but also let her know that she can let me know if she ever needs ANYthing! :)
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